June 20, 2012

My Body Is My Temple: To Love Somebody

To love somebody is to love God in somebody. To love God within a human... In my opinion, a human is an incarnated god. It's a god of flesh. What is a human body if not His likeness? The microcosm within the macrocosm. My body is my temple. Your body is the temple of god...
But - how do we love a god within a human? To love is to talk and to listen, to understand and to be close, to touch and to go for a walk together, to contemplate, to observe, to answer, to dance and to suddenly become still...

June 16, 2012

Once in the street...

This could happen to all of us...

Once in the street
Familiar wind
Brought to me
Aroma of hair
Aroma of hair - it was yours
So familiar and diverse

Really somewhere here 
Are your dark blue sad eyes
I would give anything
If only one time I could feel
If only one time I could touch it

Again and again I go somewhere
Only the familiar wind is near me
Again and again I think of you
And the ocean of your hair

This is one of my favorite songs by Nino Katamadze...

June 15, 2012

Attention, please! How they steal your attention

Hunting for attention - isn’t it the cherished dream of many and many women? To be the center of attention in the glamorous world of modeling, fame and searchlights? To tease and catch admiring eyes of fans from the covers of magazines and TV screens? To change spectacular outfits and provoke other women’s envy while grabbing their husbands’ attention? To be surrounded by the unceasing stream of fans, to be example for the crowd, just like, in Ancient Greece, they would idealize and imitate gods and goddesses... To turn into a myth, so others take them for goddesses? To be invited by well-known writers, musicians, actors, politicians, sportsmen? To be featured in the newest press releases, to make part of rumours and scandals, to be the apple of journalists’ and paparazzis’ eye?..
As for the men’s dreams, they are not much different...

The thing is, the majority of people, instead of using their own attention, search for attention of others. They want to be somebody’s dream, instead of realizing dreams of their own.
Your own attention gives you all the possibilities to concentrate inside the source of your own energy. Having a great source of energy inside, looking for somebody’s attention is the erroneous way that so many people have taken without even giving a thought to it, like a herd of sheep.
This is one of the most unpleasant breakdowns of our way of thinking. This makes us dependant on somebody’s opinion. This makes us look at ourselves with somebody else’s eyes. This is how we renounce ourselves. This is how we lose confidence, both men and women, we lose our freedom and natural way of being. This is how we become approvement seekers.
The power of captured attention
There is no bigger source of energy in the Universe than attention. Women always want attention from men and even demand it. To become the center of attention, men dare to act dangerously. In order to grow and develop, a child needs attention of the adults and attracts it in any possible way. 
Your attention is constantly attracted, stolen, captured - by annoying commercials, that exploit all your channels of perception. Your male attention is constantly examined by women, in many subtle ways. Their goal is to make you notice, admire, desire. To tease you, to make you court, to seduce. To grab your attention from their rival, to attach you. 
Most people do not manage their attention. Their attention is managed for them. It is managed by those who are in a better control of their own attention, whose will is stronger. Your attention can be stolen so easily - by a colorful picture, glitter, movement, surprise, an undisguised nakedness...
When your attention is stolen, your desires, your will and your actions are stolen as well.
The stolen attention, yours or somebody else’s, can nourish - for a while, till another portion of attention can be grabbed.
The power of personal attention
Yet, another bigger source of energy can be found within. It all begins with managing your attention. When you are able to guide your attention, you can manage your emotions, your vision and you can reveal energy inside you, which, in its turn, can lead to unusual capacities.
Managing your attention is important in yoga. Attention management is a remedy.
Attention is the basis of all development and growth. When your attention is absorbed, you can no longer move forward. You are stuck. You are not able to see the situation from different angles.
Japanese Samurai cultivated a very special state of mind, when even in the deadly fight they could admire the beauty of the landscape. As a result of their practice their attention was liberated to such an extent that they could contemplate even on the verge between life and death.
When some attention is liberated, you can read posts like this one. You are interested in something besides daily routine. Yes, you can have another option. You can watch some movie, read some stuff. You can entertain yourself in any way, and your attention will be stolen again and again, by funny things, ideas and thoughts. And you will lose your energy.
One possible alternative
Once you realize this influence on you by someone’s stronger and more concentrated will, once you become aware of it, you will then be able to develop your own. While others react to somebody’s willful actions, words, gestures, you will be able to depend on your own source.
Young age is the most vulnerable. When you are young, there is so much energy in you, and this energy needs to be applied. Without knowing much how to apply it, you just follow your undisciplined energy that carries you like a careless horseman - somewhere. Especially, when you have not learned to manage your energy correctly.
You have the right to use your attention for your personal integration.
Be careful! Many people hunt for your personal energy, trying to capture your attention in their trap. But they choose the way of a vampire who nourishes on someone’s energy. This is a very wrong way.
You can get energy from your own inner source. Once you discover your own star, on your own way, you will live - freely - without depending on somebody else’s opinion.  

June 13, 2012

Tasting Heaven

1001 Nights

... But maybe you wanna see the dull flame of desire
And melting of ice that washes away the taboos?
Come on now, my breath is like fire
For you to steal, it's what I aspire
Tasting the heaven, killing the blues...

I crave to relish the icing and feel your existence
As every sip shortens the distance
Between us. I know what you want... 
As the clothes get too tight - 
To witness the stars in the eyeballs of the sky - all burned
Yet, full of light.

I'll burst, but I'll take you away
From the sweetness of lips - many times -
To the verge of the dawn, on my way
Breaking all the lines...

Emitting a moan, I'll drink tenderness - drop by drop -
The folly of power on you intoxicates
You're my eye-opener as I pass through these states
And even if here on my knees I stop
The will on fire, yet, I will not throw a seven..
Enjoying the heaven, tasting the heaven...

June 6, 2012

Bread of Life: How to Read the Language of the Bible

Loaves and Fishes

This is not the age of information. This is not the age of information. Forget the news, and the radio, and the blurred screen. This is the time of loaves and fishes. People are hungry and one good word is bread for a thousand. -- David Whyte

On the eighth Sunday after Easter, for Pentecost, they read the Gospel According to Saint Matthew:

"14:14 And Jesus went forth, and saw a great multitude, and was moved with compassion toward them, and he healed their sick.
14:15 And when it was evening, his disciples came to him, saying, This is a desert place, and the time is now past; send the multitude away, that they may go into the villages, and buy themselves victuals.
14:16 But Jesus said unto them, They need not depart; give ye them to eat.
14:17 And they say unto him, We have here but five loaves, and two fishes.
14:18 He said, Bring them hither to me.
14:19 And he commanded the multitude to sit down on the grass, and took the five loaves, and the two fishes, and looking up to heaven, he blessed, and brake, and gave the loaves to his disciples, and the disciples to the multitude.
14:20 And they did all eat, and were filled: and they took up of the fragments that remained twelve baskets full.
14:21 And they that had eaten were about five thousand men, beside women and children.
14:22 And straightway Jesus constrained his disciples to get into a ship, and to go before him unto the other side, while he sent the multitudes away." 

What does this satiety of the five thousands with five loaves and two fishes symbolically mean? Why were there five thousand of them? Why five loaves? Why two fishes? And what does "bread" mean in the biblical language? And what does "fish" mean?
We all know that every letter, every sign of the Holy Scripture has a huge meaning, as Jesus said.
"For truly I tell you, until heaven and earth pass away, not one letter, not one stroke of a letter, will pass from the law until all is accomplished." - Matthew, 5:18

Why does Jesus pay so much attention to the letter of the Bible? It is because beyond every letter there is a deep spiritual and symbolic meaning. Saint Gregory of Nyssa explains the symbolism of the Scripture: "If you remove the material layer of the word, what is left is God, Spirit and Life". Let's remove this layer and through the letter let's go deep inside the spirit of the Bible.

What is "bread" in the language of the Bible? 

“Jesus said to them, ‘My food is to do the will of him who sent me and to complete his work.” - John, 4.34
Bread is the completion of God’s will. It is the faith that is born from the living and effective word of His. It is our daily bread. It is daily, because we need it on a daily basis to support our being. This bread fortifies our spiritual power, makes our path to the kingdom of the Lord firm, paves our way to happiness. This way gives us satisfaction of all our needs, both spiritual and physical.
“But strive first for the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well”. - Matthew, 6.33

Strive first for his righteousness! God’s righteousness, God’s word, sacred faith is what makes this indispensable bread. The Gospel According to John tells us about the same kind of bread:
“ ...it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. For the bread of God is that which comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.” - John, 4.32-33
God is the word, Jesus Christ who comes from heaven to grant faith and grace.
“I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty. “ - John, 6.35
Spiritual hunger will be satisfied within God’s word, and spiritual thirst will be quenched, because the living water of Jesus is that of humility, the “wine” of the New Testament, that alters man’s mind and cheers the heart of the righteous person. 

“I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats of this bread will live for ever; and the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh.” - John, 6.48-52
The one who feeds on this bread, the flesh of Jesus, the flesh of the Sacred Church will become righteous. 
Bogomazov, Bread, wine and fish

“Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood abide in me, and I in them.“ - John, 6.56
As we can see, if we accept the “bread” of God’s will in our flesh and in our being (the practice of faith), if we eat this bread, if we realize God’s word, if we incarnate God’s will in our flesh, then this sacred “bread of life” becomes the flesh of Christ, the body of Christ, the righteousness of Christ in us. And if we accept in our blood, in our life (blood symbolizes life, because the life of the body depends on the blood and its movement), the New Testament’s wine of God’s teaching (wine is theory, the fearless preaching of the Word), then this sacred “wine” becomes Christ’s blood in us. This way, we become unified with God’s blood and body and we become participants of the Salvation theory and practice. This is the Holy Communion of Christ’s body and blood through which and in which the grace of Holy Spirit resides.

Now we can better understand what kind of bread was blessed by Christ as he looked up to the sky. The sky is the domain of the Spirit, the God’s will, the divine firmament of the Law that separates the living water of God’s teaching - of humility and love - from the doctrine of pride and hatred. Now we understand what kind of bread was given to the apostles and they, in their turn, gave this bread to the people.

Let’s investigate further: what kind of fish does God propose to us? In the biblical language, fish is a human soul. Christ said to Peter and Andrew, the former fishermen:  "Follow me, and I will make you fish for people." - Matthew, 4.19 All alone, bread may seem tasteless. It is the fish that gives some taste...

When this fish is caught, human souls are saved from the sea of this world, the routine, excited by the storm of temptations, with the net of the Gospel’s word, with the help of missionary work of God’s messengers. When it is baked on the fire of God’s word, then those who witness this cure, obtain spiritual joy, eat the baked fish of the saved human soul. This joy, this tasty food was given by God to the people - the joy of salvation, the joy of welcoming a new human soul to the community of the faithful.

Why are there two fishes? It is because the number “two” in the language of the Bible symbolizes the double human nature, both spiritual and fleshy, soul and body. The healing takes place both on spiritual and physical levels.

And, finally, why five loaves for five thousand people? Number “five” in the Bible signifies human senses. There are five of them: the eyesight, the hearing, the touch, the taste, the sense of smell. These five senses of ours are also entrances for the temptations of this world. These five, more than anything, need to be healed. They are the five porticoes near which the ill are waiting for the cure.
“Now in Jerusalem by the Sheep Gate there is a pool, called in Hebrew Beth-zatha, which has five porticoes. In these lay many invalids—blind, lame, and paralysed.” - John, 5.2

These paralyzed, lame, blind and other sick people have no other healer than Jesus Christ. And they have no other remedy...

June 1, 2012

Mind calming meditation

Draw me the sky full of fire-ike rays
Rub the colors from the surface of the sea
I know, tomorrow today's fortresses will become ashes
the fluidity of water is deceitful
the immobilty of the stone is only an illusion...